Thursday, October 30, 2003

it's a dangerous thing...

...paypal is.

As of this morning I had $301 balance on my credit card. Bought gas after work at a damn cheap $1.32 (it's 1.41 across the street from me.) Then I'm online trying to find information on water/rain goddesses when I happened upon the website for Cresent Magazine. And a recent issue is about dance. I could order it from them or visit my local book shop. Since no one around here carries it I went ahead and splurge ordered it. Probably wouldn't have if they only took money orders via postal, but pay pal was accepted and I just recently opened an account there. One click, two click, three click, bought. My paypal account is why I try to stay off of ebay. Thank goodness amazon.com doesn't accept paypal or I'd be in some deep shit. Deep expensive shit.

Wednesday, October 29, 2003

it's getting cooler here

Yep, it's almost winter. I can feel it. Not in my bones, but my skin. I go through lotion like there's no tomorrow in the winter. I need to clean up the humidifire and get that going since I've been waking up in the middle of the night with hads so dry they hurt and a bloody nose.

I'm as done as I can get on the catalog. I'm waiting for the borders and division pages to be finalized and approved. I told my supervisior (who's making said borders and division pages) that I needed them by Friday. Then I can place the borders, division pages, ads and table of contents by Monday, print it all out Tuesday and correct any big errors. Then Wednesday I can overnight it to the publisher.

Everything so far has progressed smoothly and quickly and I should be able to send off all the pages next Wed, instead of just half as was scheduled.

I hope to take a few days off mid-November to shop for home loans and look at houses. My lease expires Dec 31. I'd rather not rush into buying a house before then. My parents still don't seem all that thrilled or supportive about me getting a house. Mom once suggested renting a house. Renting a 1 bed, 1 bath house=$600 a month. House payment on a 3 bed, 2 bath house=$375-400 a month. Do the math mom. Yes, the first 5 or 6 years you're paying on interest instead of principal, but at least I can paint the walls when I get tired of looking at them.

I'm thinking of going home this weekend since Mom likes to remind me that it's been since the last weekend in June since I've been home and seen dad.

Wednesday, October 22, 2003

I need to hot tub

Catalog is going pretty good. All that's left on my end is indexing, which I started this afternoon. Should be able to finish up tomorrow on it. I'm cleaning up the index. The previous format sucked. It looked messy and was hard to read. I wanted to do this format from the beginning, but my supervisor at the time said 'no, this is how management wants it.' I didn't bother to ask managment their opinion this time. I've found that if you give the higher-ups a choice, they'll go with the stupid most illogical one everytime.

My Zoloft was bumped up to 200mg the week before last. Don't know if it's doing any good since the side effects that went away are now back. Not as bad or as often, except not being able to sleep.

Have posted some dreams in my dream journal.

Bought a tarot deck, Tarot of the Old Path. Also bought a book called How to be Your Own Herbal Pharmacist. I can't wait to have a house and a little spot for an herb garden.

Monday, October 20, 2003

Saturday, October 18, 2003

Still alive just tired

I'm still around. Things have been busy at work with the catalog in production now. Things seem to be going along pretty good on it. A minor problem with the PDF files I sent them as a trial was corrected. Worked a bit of overtime this week to get caught up on the other stuff I haven't had time to do. So Friday was spent basically bored at work.

The weather has been wonderfully autumnal.

I bought a sundial ring a few weeks ago. The outside reads 'Forever Timeless' , has the infinity symbol and has a tiny hole through the band. On the inside across from the hole are two rows of numbers. You hold the ring vertically so the hole is a 2 o'clock and point the hole in the direction of the sun. A tiny bead of light will fall on the inside on or between the numbers.

I love rings and buy them, but hardly ever wear them for some reason. But this one I've worn damn near everyday and night since I bought it.

Last weekend I went up to Guthrie to look at a building I saw for sale online. It is a church upstairs with a small apt downstairs for the minister. But this minister was a barber and had a little shop down there as well as a few classrooms. The way the description was written it sounded like it was a house that was converted to a church and could easily be turned back to a house. But it was originally built as a church. They are asking too much for it anyway then to have a few walls put up, kitchen and bathtub installed would be too much.

But I noted the real estate office on the sign and then decided to go to down town Guthrie to antique shop. And who was on the corner but the real estate office and they were open. There was parking right out front (rare on a Saturday) so I stopped in. The guy there was real nice and showed me 3 houses and that church that afternoon.

The church was nixed. Too expensive, too much work to be done built in 1935. The second house reeked of that musty old lady smell. Besides being in desperate need of new carpet it was in good condition. The upstairs was one huge room with windows all the way around and built in 1940. I could easily see it being turned into a sewing room. The living room and dining room was huge. There was wood paneling that had knots in it, but not the kind that has the black vertical lines in it that was popular in the late 60s/early 70s. The agent said people are having that installed in homes now. I think he's full of shit.

The third house was built in 1910. The owner was renovatating it when he moved out of state. He rented it out for a while but then the real estate agent evicted them after 10 months of not paying rent. They trashed the place including tearing out the kitchen cabinets. So the house was in bits and pieces being redone. I saw a lot of potiential in that house. Four bedroom, 1.5 baths, wrap around porch. A back yard big enough for a second house. As much as I love big yards, I did see a mowing headache. Several mature trees.

The owner brought it down from $69,000 to $35,000. Needs a new roof and storm windows now and new siding if not now, then in a few years. The kitchen would have to be finished and the bathroom works so I could live in it while fixing it up. The agent said it would be another $10,000-15,000 to have it worked on then I could turn around and sell it for $75,000. Again, I think he's full of shit, it's gonna be a lot more than that to get it looking good.

The price is negotiable since it's been on the market for at least 6 months. My two concerns are, is it worth $35k and how much will it cost to fix up?

The last house he showed me was a few miles out of town in a residential area where each house sat on at least 2 or 3 acres. This one was built by the owner in 1991. This was the only one that was still occupied. When you stepped inside you were in the livingroom, with the kitchen behind it. The only think that seperated the two was a kitchen island where the sink was. The bedrooms and bathrooms were on either side of the living room. There was no hall to seperate the bedrooms from the rest of the house. So whatever you did in the bathroom or bedroom could be heard in the living room. The doors were cheap and hollow. The woman lived there alone and drew up the floor plans for the house.

It was peaceful out there but I could feel the icky energy when I walked in the house. I almost told the agent that there was disturbed juju in that house, but he had a quiet yet deep faith in Christianity and I didn't want to wig him out.

I drove around in a neighborhood here that I'd like to live in looking for houses for sale. One was being sold by the owner so I called and left a message. She called back the next day and left a message that the house was $130,000! For that tiny house?? She said a deck had been added on in the back, but that still doesn't justify that high of a price, not for that area.

Saturday, October 04, 2003

Car fetish

Something I noticed just recently. A rash of car fuckers.

First hidden cams to make sure the babysitter wasn't beating your kids, now you need one for the mechanic.

And this poor schmuck hides his illness behind a 'contest.'

dream journal

I started a dream journal on livejournal. Feel free to check it out if you so desire. Feel free to analize my dreams too. Adventures of a Wandering Mind.

Not much really has been going on. The weather is cool and very fall like. Or as fall as it gets around here. Leaves don't really change here. There's about a 2 week period where the leaves go from dark green to dead. Already some of the oak trees around here have dried up brown leaves on the branches. A few weeks ago some of the cherry trees in the apt complex dropped their fruit and re-bloomed nice and pink.

Went to the gyno again last week. I told her about being on zoloft and going to a therapist for depression. She suggested that I talk to the shrink about adding wellbutrin in addition to the zoloft. She said it will help me get to where I need to be without the serious drowsiness zoloft gives me.