how very curious

I don't own the Genesis cd, Invisible Touch. I like it, but haven't got around to buying it. So I sometimes borrow it. What is it about that cd, that everyone I've borrowed it from, it's scratched so bad that it skips through most of it?

'net withdrawls.

Yes, I'm back online. Finally.

Went to UEA this weekend. Had fun, learned stuff and met some neat people. Some fruitcakes to, but at least they were nice and openminded.

RIP: my old computer

My computer is on its last legs. I hope to get a new one sometime next week.

Saturday (tomorrow) I'm going to Ft. Worth to check out the Egyptian artifacts exhibits at the Kimball Museum.

mental elevator

Sometimes I'm bouncing up and down in my chair, just happy to be. Other times I'm glassy eyed and want only to write a fake note from mom to my boss and crawl into bed for the next three or four years. And lately those two extremes are in the same half hour.

That's exactly what I need right now, to be manic. At least depression was predictable. And not near as expensive. I get paid next friday and I have to make $24.17 last. And between now and then I'll have therapy and a drug refill and at least one grocery run. Mom is coming up tomorrow morning and we're going to Guthrie. That will be good for a tank of gas since I'll insist on driving. She'll treat me to at least 2 meals before she goes back home. A part of me wants to ask for money, rationalizing that I've only asked for money once in the 10 years I've been on my own. Another part says no, I'm 28, employed and responsible and if I do, it's akin to moving back home with a dead-beat boyfriend in tow.

I have deleted what I just typed since it further explains and complains about my finances. I won't depress or continue to bore you.

wwhhhhhhaaa, wwhhhhhhaaa

tunk, tunk, tunk, is this thing on?

Yeppers, I redesigned. And if you stopped by earlier and found the place chaotic and blue, I'm very very sorry, and I won't let it happen again.

Let me know what you think. (hopefully the comments link is working, not sure about the notify list thingy though). Or email me surfacetension@yahoo.com

more thoughts

Elvis sang a song called Kentucky Rain about his search in bad weather for his girlfriend who slipped out on him. Then Neil Diamond has his song called Kentucky Woman about how beautiful and wonderful this one chick is. Are they singing about the same woman? Did she get fed up with the fat bloated Elvis and hitch a ride over the mountains to Neil and his glittery shirts and receding hairline?

...and why isn't the Trix rabbit on the box of Cocoa Puffs?

blurry eyed

I should be on the road to work right now, but I just woke up. A tall glass of generic instant breakfast is in front of me. This morning's abandonment themed dream has me feeling all alone and lost. Been feeling lost these last few days. Last night I was in a sorta mood to draw and pondered over how to draw 'lost'. I feel like I'm being sucked into a black hole where not even emotion can escape.

Madonna & Brittany Who?

Went to the mall today with a guy friend, Steven. We painted some pottery then at lunch. On our way through the mall I saw a kiosk of body jewlery. I asked if they had any noserings. She showed me the small selection she had. As we were walking away Steven said that chick was totally hitting on me. 'No she wasn't' I said. 'Yeah, she was, believe me, guys notice stuff like that.' After we ate, we went back and I picked out a dark green stud. She suggested a light green stud instead since it would go better with my skin tone. I didn't notice the light green stud since the light was crappy in the display case. So as I was thinking she said if I bought a second one, I'd get it for half price. So I went with the light green and a burgandy stud. I don't know if she really was flirting with me, but I did flirt with her a bit. And she charged me a bit less than half on the second stud.

Then we wandered the mall some more. I saw a black corset in the window of Charlotte Russe and Steve said I should try it on. So I did. Surprise, surprise the medium fit. Not just in the waist but the boobs as well. I thought I could get a better fit with the small, but then it would be too small in the waist. It has a black ribbon lacing up the back and hooks & eyes in the front. No bows, no frills, no lace. A simple corset. Even though it was on sale I wasn't sure if I would ever wear it. So I let Steven talk me into buying it.